ADF Dedicant Path: Second High Day Recap (Harvest Home)
I celebrated the Harvest Home with my grove on the 19th. We had an indoor ritual this time because a feast-centered holiday is better suited to the indoors (not that we don’t feast after all rituals, but this one was bigger). There is a lovely little new age shop that lets the grove use a room in their shop for indoor rituals.
The ritual this time was Norse and we honored Thor as the patron since his storms are essential for bountiful harvests. Heimdall was the gate keeper. Two of the grove members conducted the ritual. I gave a praise offering to Thor (Thunor in my private practice) , since I have been feeling increasingly drawn to this deity over the past couple of months. When I began the Dedicant Path, I was anxious over selecting a patron, thinking that it was required. Thunor is the deity who led me to my current path and the one whom I feel has been in my life long before I recognized him. Once I learned that patrons and such weren’t essential, I focused less on Thunor and more on developing a general working relationship with all of the powers (ancestors and wights included), and trying to figure out how or if to let in a deity from another pantheon whom I am interested in working with. Despite my efforts to be all-powers-encompassing with my private rituals, I keep feeling Thunor’s presence the most. I am not at any point yet to deem him or any deity a patron, but I am comfortable saying that I am in a close working relationship with him.
As has been my experience with group ritual so far, I had trouble feeling a connection during my praise offering. I cannot focus my mind and intentions when there are many eyes on me. I went through the motions, but I did not feel like they were authentic. I am hoping I will get better at grounding myself and making meaningful connections during group rituals. It isn’t only during my personal praise offering that I feel this disconnect. I am fairly comfortable with the guided meditation before the rite, but after that I can’t maintain the focus throughout the ritual.
Besides my private setbacks, the ritual went well. Algiz was the omen for our group, a rune indicating safety, protection, and spiritual growth.
After rite ended, we feasted, of course. There was lots and lots of beer and wine and mead. I had some fantastic pumpkin spice beer and hard apple cider. The main course was a delicious lentil and ham stew (yummy lentils!).
I am looking forward to the next High Day and I hope my private meditation practice in the interim will pay off by then.